I’ve been following a blog about a young lady and her hubby that are really battling to have a baby of their own. They have tried IVF and done the donor thing twice.
As most of you are aware I did fertility for a whole 2 months and it drove me insane. I was the most unpleasant person to be around. I gained 8kg in the two months which made me miserable, I’m still carrying those 8 kg – two years later. I quit after two months BUT I was one of the lucky ones because two months later I fell pregnant with Abigail and then again when she was 8 weeks old with our little Logan.
My hubby and I are truly, truly blessed and we thank God every single day for our beautiful children. We thank him for trusting us to be their parents.
Today while I was reading her blog my heart really ached for her. They have now chosen their third donor and I honestly pray that it all works out for them and that they receive good news! News that will make them laugh, make them cheer, make them cry. News that they too will be proud parents in 9 months time.
Whilst reading her blog, I thought about my post “No more babies” and I wondered how she would feel if she read the post. I’m sure it would break her heart because she so desperately wants to have a baby of her own and then you get people like myself that conceived easily twice and then chose to be sterilized.
I realize my decision has nothing to do with anybody else other than my husband, but still I do feel and care for those who read my post and cannot conceive.
There are so many parents out there that do not deserve to have children of their own. I get a little upset with God sometimes especially when I read or hear about situations such as this. I know you are probably saying “how dare you get up set with him” but hey! I’m only human and I’m certain he understands where I am coming from:)
Anyway, I am keeping her and her hubby in my prayers and my thoughts and I really hope that they too will be blessed with a bundle of joy soon, soon.
March 27th, 2010 - 3:39 pm
I’ll keep my fingers crossed for them too!
March 27th, 2010 - 8:38 pm
I am slowly reaching a point where I don’t cry when I read about other people’s pregnancies.
I still feel heartsore, and often I am beyond angry, but I am making progress.
Getting the kittens has helped, I think.
March 28th, 2010 - 7:47 am
I often think that I might hurt others with posts – when I complain about my kids, and tough time. But the honest truth is that we all have our bundle of cares in our lives, and we have to deal with them.
March 30th, 2010 - 10:12 am
Thanks so much for thinking of us. I don’t get upset with people who decide that they don’t want anymore kids, or even people who decide that they want no kids. But I do get upset when people tell me to relax, or offer some platitude without thinking. You where obviously blessed with empathy and understanding. (((HUGS)))
March 30th, 2010 - 11:22 am
I relate with what you are saying. For year I was very angry with God for “allowing” me to fall pregnant and have a little one when there are so many happy, settled couples wanting babies.
I look at my friend and her husband trying for another, I’m worried about how that will affect our friendship if I fall pregnant again (one day- not right now
).
I guess we don’t know, we can’t understand, we can’t see the bigger picture!!!
March 30th, 2010 - 11:24 am
That just still doesn’t make it better/ easier!
But I think there is a little bit of peace when you realise there is a big picture. Somehow then you know this isn’t all one sick game!
That helps me, just a little.