I have!

Hubby and I spend most of our time together. We are the best of friends, pretty much apart of one another.

We are so in tune with each other that we could finish one another’s sentences.

We are business partners and in fact “life partners”

Last week I went to Cape Town for 8 days, unfortunately hubby couldn’t join me. He picked me up from the airport on the Friday, when we landed. We got to spend an hour maybe two with each other before he set off on his 9 day cycling tour.

Tonight as I lay in our bed, my heart aches for him. I mean physically aches. I can physically feel the pain.

My bed is empty. Well not really cause Josh is lying next to me, but its the place where my hubby should be. On this cold winter night I should be snuggled up against his body, feeling safe, feeling warm. Instead all I feel is the emptiness inside, the tears rolling down my cheeks and the longing.

I keep reminding myself, only four more sleeps and then he will be home. Home with me where he belongs, for me to love, snuggle and cuddle.

Hurry home my love because I miss you dearly.

Some of you are aware that I am going thru Post Natal Depression as well as Post Traumatic Stress, the one related to the births of my beautiful girls and the other to a few things but mainly my late brothers death.  Anyway I’m not going to get into it with you, cause it is something I don’t want to share with the world. Having to deal with this has put a lot of pressure on my family (my hubby and kids) coz I am just not me at the mo. I’m desperately trying to deal with all the emotions.

Barend has been absolutely wonderful, so wonderful that at times I wish he would just shake me and tell me to snap out of it. But all he does is offer his love (abundance) and support.

Whilst shopping yesterday I found a card which seemed perfect for him. I put the card in his bag, hoping he would open it on tour but he wasn’t done with his packing so he read it last night.  I’m happy coz now I know that he has gone on tour, knowing  just how much I love him and that I am very, very grateful for everything he does for me and the kids.

The poem…………..

I need you to make my life complete.

You have brought me so much joy, and now I cannot imagine a day without you in my life….

You are essential to me.  You give me all the things I’ve never been able to find before but always hoped and prayed for.

I cherish you, and I am devoted to you; I love you more each minute.

Being with you is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Your grace and acceptance of me are so overwhelming, moving and precious.

I will always honor and love you and I pray I will never disappoint you.

I love you so very much, and all I want to do is love you even more.

• say thank you
• to show your appreciation and gratitude
• to show your love

I am usually quite good at saying thank you, showing appreciation, gratitude and love. But lately I’ve slipped up badly.

I rave about my husband quite often on my blog and it is not because I have to but because I can and I want to. I love my husband unconditionally, he is my soul mate. I know of quite a few ladies that feel the same about their partners and it is a wonderful feeling. To us our partners are “perfect” they are the love of our lives and our lives revolve around them.

My husband is my best friend, my lover, my business partner and soul mate. In fact he is my everything. I am very fortunate and blessed.

I often wonder if he knows how much he means to me, how much I cherish him.  I am certain that he is not feeling the love at the mo, I’ve given everything to our new venture so much so that I’ve taken a part of us and pushed it aside. There is no excuse, it is something I have to fix.

Don’t get me wrong he never complains but because we are so in-tune with one another I feel what he feels.

He is not only a wonderful husband but an awesome daddy too. Our children love him and their little faces light up when he is in the room. He takes good care of them.

He provides for us emotionally, physically and financially and never asks for anything in return.

Thank you my love for everything!

I had not a care in the world.  My hair was  tied up in a pony, I was wearing my red bikini top and my delightful shorts which were drenched from the jacuzzi, I was not looking my best I might add.

Sipping on my 3^rd maybe 4^th glass of red wine (who was counting right), when in walked this gorgeous man, with a stunning blonde following closely behind him.

Brief introductions took place and they took a seat on the couch…….but…….. they sat a seat apart.  Hmmm I remember thinking how I liked the look of that.

I slowly strolled over and sat between them, politely asking if they are were an item, to which they both replied “No, we’re just friends”.  I smiled……………………….and two years later Mr Gorgeous and I got married.

Joshua was very excited as he walked me down the aisle. We both smiled from ear to ear, thinking back we probably would have been good characters for a Colgate advert.

It was an important day for the three of us because we were officially going to be united as a family.

The ceremony was absolutely beautiful.  Barend and I exchanged our vows and no sooner did our minister announce us to be man and wife. It was the happiest day of my life, I was now Mrs. Leigh-Ann Burger!

We invited family and close friends to our wedding, wanting them to share our special day. Everyone had a fabulous time.

This was definitely my most memorable, special and treasured day.  I am very, very blessed because I married my soul mate, my best friend, my companion and lover.

I thank God every day for creating and giving me such a beautiful man, not only for myself but also for our children.